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“I waited for you to open your door, just so I could get a glimpse. Our eyes connected, and had a hard time pulling my wolf away from you that day. I remember going back to the house, crawling back into bed with Kennedy, and pretending that she was you, that I was fucking you. Not making love. I swear to the moon it was the most intense experience I Aave ever had with her. Nothing in my lifetime has ever come close to that. That was the fast time we ever fucked. I couldn’t anymore. I felt too guilty.” The message ends with him taking another long inhaled breath from something he’s smoking.
The next message is from him again.
“The next time I saw you was at the pack house. My mother made sure you were there. I watched you in your car. You looked pitiful the way you kept opening and closing your door, talking to yourself. I wanted to go over to you, but I didn’t. A common theme with me. I didn’t, but Dallas did. I watched how he opened your door, talked with you. I watched how he pried your hands off the steering wheel, getting you to get out of that car of yours. It wasn’t me who was by your side but him as you walked into the party. No one really said anything to you, no hello’s that you’re back. Nothing. It’s as if you still never existed. Isn’t that right no one really cared that you were even back? Maybe they just forgot about you. like the way I did.” This hurts me so much that my pack doesn’t even care. I bet when I get back, no one even notices.
“I saw you with him. You kept your back to me, but I couldn’t stop looking at you. Kennedy was watching me like a hawk, getting more and more upset. I can tell when she’s upset; she stops talking. Dallas was upset about something; he was talking to my father as if he were the Alpha. I have never seen him so dominant. I knew right then that he was Alpha born. I should have known better than try to fight him that night. My father put on a show for you, always the actor. To tell you the truth, Rya, I hated that male. We never saw eye to eye ever. I remember coming toward you and you freaked out. You couldn’t even stand, falling to the ground. It was hard to watch the pain I have caused you. For the first time, I felt the need to do something, to help you up. I tried to reach for you, but Kennedy wouldn’t let me, and I allowed her to pull me back. I could have easily just brushed past her, to help you off the ground, but once again I didn’t do anything but watch you come apart. The funny thing was you got up on your own; no one helped you but yourself. Our eyes connected for a split moment, and I knew that you were mine. You turned your back on me, and I let what was mine walk away.” He takes a swallow of something that makes him hiss slightly with the
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way it must burn his throat.
There are no more messages from Dallas. I think I must be home from the being with the wild wolves. I check the date and, sure enough, I am back. So now all I have to listen to is Clayton and his side of the story.
“I waited for you to be done with work. I didn’t know how to approach you. I should have just marked you that day. I should have just claimed you and said screw the consequences. just couldn’t do it to Kennedy. That was the only thing stopping me, what I had with her. I have loved that wolf my whole life, Rya. I don’t think I could ever love someone that much again. My heart just won’t let me. I’m sorry if that hurts, but it’s the truth. She is my greatest love, and you’re becoming my greatest regret.” He inhales again from whatever he’s smoking.
“I remember that day at Dallas’s party that he decided to put together. He would sometimes invite people to his place, not usually, but when he did it was always a good time. I was a little upset when he called me, told us to stay home, that we weren’t invited. I thought it was a joke at first. I laughed at him; he never laughed back. He said that if I was to go, you would probably leave, and he wanted you to stay. I knew then that he was going after you. He never had to say anything, but I knew that wolf wanted you. So, of course, I went with Kennedy. I had to. I just couldn’t stay away from you, especially now you had some other wolf sniffing around you.” He takes another drink, long swallows before he says another
word.
“He walked right up to us. You know something? Kennedy always got looked at by other
never looked at her like that. wolves, and it drove me crazy. He’s probably the only one who To tell you the truth, he never looked at any female until you came along. Where was I again?” It’s almost as if he’s getting lost in his own thoughts, his words becoming slightly
slurred.
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