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Dad was crazy.
He snapped.
He suddenly turned around, hitting Carol.
I covered my mouth.
“Shut your mouth, you don’t deserve to say
her name.”
Tiffany cried.
Carol smiled.
“You think you deserve to say her name?”
“You’re the last person who should be saying
her name.”
“Jason! Sarah would not forgive you, ever!”
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From then on, Dad would ask.
“Lily, will Mom forgive me?”
I nodded.
“Why?”
“Mom said we are a family, families forgive
each other.”
Dad stood up.
He knelt in front of Mom’s photo.
He touched her photo, saying, “Sarah, you
raised our daughter well.”
“Sarah, I know everything was my fault, I’m so
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“Sarah, I know everything was my fault, I’m so
sorry, to you and our daughter.”
“If you can hear me, come to me in my
dreams, I haven’t been able to talk to you.”
After that, Dad wanted me to come home.
I didn’t want to.
Grandma didn’t want to.
“You killed my daughter, enough, do you want
to kill my granddaughter?”
Dad looked down.
I told Dad, “Leave, I don’t want you to come
home.”
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Dad asked, “Why? Lily, didn’t you forgive
Dad?”
“I can’t go home, Grandma won’t survive it.”
Dad held me, saying, “Without you, I can’t
make it through this.”
No.
I knew.
That’s not it.
Dad called Mom.
Ringing a second then hanging up.
But, Grandma called Mom.
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It would ring and ring and ring.
I knew.
Grandma loved Mom more than Dad did.
I can’t leave Grandma.
