Chapter 186
Looking at Dallas, his eyes are on me, watching where my eyes were. He says nothing to me as he looks at her, taking a deep breath before smiling at me, slightly. I know he said that he is over her, that he’s ready to move on, hot in he really?
Can he love me more? He says he can. I’m not sure where all these doubts we coming from. Maybe I’m just hormonal from the birth
I still look at all the pictures. Not one of me hangs on their wall. It’s an
an irratinroll thought, but it’s still a thought. I’m not on the wall
Lena Grare takes him from my arms, holding him, musling him, eoing her soft vce in his ear. She gets up, placing him in everyone’s arms for just a short time. Getting used to having achers hold him I wonder if her mother did the same thing when Tallas was bort||
We sit this way for at least an hour as he’s passed around to all the wohers here. Even Treasure takes a tune, she leans into hit ear, a whispered word so soft its lost even in the silence as we take her in Bela watches her in silence.
thece Chance makes it back to me, I’m somewhat settled downs Dallas the whole time, was rubbing my bark, my leg, whispering in my war. It’s okay, no one will hurt him, we’re all family
Chance starts to grunt, rooting around for something to eat His grants start to turn into small whimpers until they are loud cries with real tears. Hespotting on a good show for them
“I think it’s time for me to feed him.” Getting up quickly from the couch, I take my pup from the family, thankful to get away
come with you” Dallas starts to get up off the couch
“No, you stay. I’m just going to feed him. Tilbe hack down soon.” Imslightly shaky at the moment, and I don’t know why. My words come out harsh toward him: irske a light switchi turning on and oft
My emotions may back and forth.
They all give me looks of conduismas lewe but say nothing. Dallas gets up off the ground getting ready to follow me but I stop him with a lank||
te de pause for a fraction of a second but doesn’t listen as he follows me up to his room]
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My chest is sore and swollen with the anticipation of his thirst, Chance fumbles around with lips that aren’t parted rough. I take him off, only to place him better so his Larch is open mouched and wide)
He needs to to get right or else he will hurt me with blisters and cracked nipples if he’s not on me placed property
Finally, best in for a good feeding his hole body molding into mine, on to the second, his hunger nothing but pure greed. The line belly distend
skin, our bonding becoming stronger and stronger with each passing hour. He drains the first, only to move
firm as he fills himself up with mother’s milk.|||
Once done. Dalla takes him from my arm, burping him, changing him, swading him in his blanket, before placing him in his cri He’s already asleep again. Brand new pups are so easy to rare for. After the pups needs are taken care of Dollars to me
“What’s the matter, Rys? I can tell you’re upset about seeing that picture. Talk to me. What’s upsetting about it? Do you want me to take down her picture?“|||
“No. don’t do that. It’s nothing “I rack in the chair that’s been placed in the comer of the room.
“Obviously as something Just talk to me. I can’t read your mind tell me what’s the ma
matter “He goes between my legs, stopping the rocking motion with his knew]]
“We need to talk abo the things that make in upset.” Pulling me off the chair, he sits down and position mean his lap. He begins to rock us slowly, back and forth, as if we’re on a beat that’s larily drifting on the waves in the noonday sun
“Rya, she’s part of my past, but like I said before, you’re my now
Tknow, sarry I’m emotional” It has my head on his shoulder as he
te rocks us both]
Do you want me to take that picture down? I do if you want.” His fingers glide back and forth on the inside of my wrat
“No, it’s okay.” I should not be jealous of the dead. It’s not like they can come back and take him away from m
“Are you bure? just tell me if you’re not. I take it down, but I want you to know that she deserves to be up there. She has done nothing wrong. She is part of the family air like you are. She died, nya, she died. She is no longer here, but I just can’t pretend she never existed. We had a life together, we did, and now we have a life together. His voice in choking in his throat,
clenching so tight it’s hard for him to get his words at ass fingers fall onto my shoulders
