Chapter 222
You’re going to need to be selfless, not selfish. You’re going to need to put them first, not yourself. You have to stop focusing on the way you’ve been hurt or how shit didn’t work out for you Drink a fucking beer and move fucking on Harsh I know, but sometimes you need to hear the things people want to say to you but don’t because they are afraid of hurting your feelings. I’ve never really cared about your feelings, have 17
You’re a dweller. You dwell and think too much. You have to get over it you have to move on. Its the only way to be happy, Cash. I want you to be happy I want you to be a good father to the twine I want you to love someone who will love you hack. But you won’t do that if you dwell on the things that can’t be changed. Make peace with this, Cash. Make peace with yourself. and make peace for your children’s sake [
You’re lucky. You’re going to see them grow you’re going to see them turn over, can take their first steps. I don’t want you to miss out on the good things I have brought to you became you couldn’t get over the ruin I chased you.
You’re going to be able to kiss all their boo–boos better. You’re going to be their father that they look up to learn from, who they brag to the kids at school about. You’re going reach them to ride bikes and eat ice cream cones. You’re going to play with them and tell them bedtime stories. You’re going to be their leader. Lead them with laughter, and low. Not with in Cach
I’m so jealous that you get to be real to them. I won’t be just something that they hear stories about. I’m afraid that you don’t have any good stories to tell them. Make shit up if you have toptell them the good muff Cash, that I loved to draw. You can tell them that I always wanted to go to art school. Make sure to tell them to do the things they want to do and not wait to do it I wish I would have gone to art school I should have gone :0
If the wins show a creative side, involve them in the arts. Take them to classes; let them explore their gift I saw that y You’re really good. I never knew you could draw. Does your family know? Don’t hide your gift. Be proud.
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This is going to be hard. Cath but life’s hard. ||
you started to draw. I peeked in your drawer and saw your sketches
The un right, but the rays are filtered through the tint in the windows. I still feel as if I am burning up when Cassius polls out his phone and I have to watch in horror as Hazel’s member is tapped in painfully slow. The seatbelt cuts into my chest when I try leaning forward to hear her talk on the other end. ||
You should call her later when you’re alone” Caleb sounds dry, like he needs another juice box his eyes find mine before looking back at the road.
1 want to speak to her.” Cassius runs his finger over the image of her eyes, like something that is holy and divine, as he waits for her to answer her phone.
Is this Hazed!” He uses a voice that I’m not familiar with it sounds cold. I shiver.]]
1 want an appointment.” There’s a flex in Cassius jow while I slump into the sear
Tommie referred e He gave me ● your business card.” A pause while he listens to a voice I can’t hear on the other end.
Tomunde said to ask for the discount.” He pulls the phone from hear. I can hear her voice that has risen, but I can’t make out the words.
“Do get a discount?” he asks again, and this time I can hear Hazel on the other end ||
“No discount Tummde has no idea what he’s talking about. He doesn’t know me or my work, but I promise after we’re done, you will have a new understanding of what I do.” Hazel’s voice. seems to raise the hackles between Cassius’s shoulder blades. I can see the ridge fur trying to poke through
Cassius’s face drops lower than Hazel’s voice just did as he listens to her, and my gut drops like I’m falling from somewhere high. I might get sick. A window rolls down while fresh air pushes
“book me a spot. There is a wait. He taps the card, and the frown slides away, replaced with something dark, cunning]]
Saturday, seven. See you then, Hazel He hangs up, raises up slightly in the seat to push the card into his back pocket. You’re really going to meet
To meet her in Vr
er in Vegas?” Caleb’s eyes shift to the side at Cass. I watch him through the rearview mirror.
Yes, I am I just have to find where she’s staying an
Wait, so you’re going to Vegas you don’t know where she’s at, and you’re going to show up there at seven?” Caleb shakes his head.
