I didn’t say anything.
At the hospital, the doc wanted to talk to me
alone. Chad stayed outside.
She said it was a little spotting, take it easy,
and I’d be fine.
“Actually, I’d like to schedule an abortion.”
The doc looked surprised, then at the door,
thinking about Chad, and said:
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“That’s your husband, right? Maybe talk to
him first? See what he thinks?”
I went to the door and heard Chad on the
phone.
He was on speaker, so it was loud.
“Chad, I was thinking… Amy was bleeding down there… is she pregnant? Chad, you
can’t keep doing this to her. Stop.”
Chad sounded annoyed:
“No way. I’ve messed with her 26 times. Her
body’s wrecked. How would she get
pregnant? Even if she did, it’s an illegitimate
kid that nobody needs. So what? It would just
piss off Shelly.”
く
The doctor looked uncomfortable.
I made the appointment, went back to Chad,
and he grabbed my arm.
“Amy, what did the doc say?”
“Just my period.”
At home, Chad pushed me on the bed,
breathing on my neck.
“Amy, I was thinking today. Let’s have a kid
after the wedding, okay? Your mom would
love to be a grandma.”
I knew what he said, but I was sarcastic about
- it.
“Okay, you’re tired, too. Get some sleep.”
Г
After Chad was out, I grabbed his phone.
The password was Shelly’s birthday.
The top contact was ‘Shelly my love‘.
There were all the videos of the 26 times I’d
saved Chad.
“Shelly, this time, it’s ‘walk the plank‘. Amy
looks like Swiss cheese.”
“Shelly, she’s a Shelly double. I love you.”
There were thousands of photos of him and
Shelly from when they were kids.
Every birthday, he’d said he was going on
business trips. He was with Shelly.
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He took her to theme parks all over the world
and kissed her at the entrances.
He never took me to the movies.
“Movies are dumb. It’s all made up for idiots.”
He also gave me Shelly’s smallest ring.
And in a group chat with his friends, he wrote
that made me die inside.
“Amy gave me this card. I know there’s
nothing in it. She just thinks that I am too
dumb to see. Amy just feels bad about the
hospital bills that I payed.”
“I did not fall in love with her on my own. I
thought I would be nice to her, but I am
getting sick of this ”
I never thought that he would think that about
- me.
I had so many extra jobs so I could save his
money, so he would not think that i did it for
the money.
I bought the plane tickets and was done.
The next morning, Chad made breakfast for
- me.
Before, I was so happy.
Now he was just being good so I can make
his girlfriend happy again.
He saw that I did not eat anything.
Г
“Amy, what is it?”
“Nothing. I just miss my mom, that’s all.”
Chad said, softly:
“I know you care about your mom, but I do
too. I love the way she would hold my hand
when she got to see us together.”
“It’s hard for her to move, but I’ll take you to
see her after the wedding. I do miss her.”
How many times has she gone to see her? I
asked myself.
