- Making decisions
Time, cruel and indifferent, watches the pain in people but never stops its march. These have been difficult months. My baby, who was well behaved with his mom at first, decided by the third month that he wanted to make his presence known to everyone. I’ve had many discomforts. Supposedly, I’m the expert, but in truth, even though you have all the knowledge to help alleviate your patients‘ symptoms, nothing prepares you for experiencing them yourself Instead of gaining weight, I lost ¿ due to vomiting and nausea Currently the only evidence of my pregnancy is a small bump. It’s a tiny little ball protruding from my belly. The gils adore it, and every time they see me, they come to caress my son because, yes, it’s confirmed the one who will soon bring joy to my life is a boy.
Aaron has become increasingly closer to me, spending as much time with me as possible. As he promised, every month he takes me to a special place where he proposes to me again. The first time was awkward, but as our trust has grown, those proposal attempts have become something amusing.
Although he doesn’t express it, I know he feels a bit frustrated that I don’t take him seriously. But how can he go around proposing to a pregnant woman he’s only known
for a few months?
The truth is that my affection for him has also been gradually changing. I can’t say that I love him, but i was in love with the unmentionable” for so long as the girls call
him, that they say I might have created a dependency on wanting to feel romantic affection for someone. But that’s false. I don’t think of Aaron as a potential partner.
“Thinking again?” I’m finishing packing my things when I look up and see him at the door. He’s an extremely attractive guy so he’s surely a heartbreaker. Unfortunately for him, mine is already broken.
“Yes, thinking again. Why does it bother you?” He comes closer and gives me a kiss on the cheek
” doesn’t bother me, but I want you to stop worrying it’s not good for Angelito.” I smile at the loving way he talks about my baby I wonder, would his father speak like that about his son? Well, I guess I’ll have to stay with the doubt in these months, I made the definitive decision not to let him know we’re going to have a child My friends were
upset, but since they are not in my shoes. Lasked them to respect my decision.
“I’m not worried. Do you know today marks my fifth month of pregnancy? Look at my ltle belly, it’s very small,” I pout, and he hugs me. Our closeness has also become
more frequent. In the little over the months we’ve known each other, the intimacy between us is more pleasant. Obviously it mean the intimacy of being class, nol
intimacy of another kind. I feel the heat me to my head thinking about that
“Hey, hey why did you turn red? Stop thinking dirty thoughts. He looks me in the eyes, and suddenly, we both burst into laughter it’s something I’m grateful for with all my heart. He has brought back my joy, and now smiles are more frequent on my face.
“I don’t think I’ve told you today that you’re a fool,” I say, giving him a light punch in the stomach with my fist. The guy moves exaggeratedly, as if I had really hurt him:
Suddenly he gris pennus. He crouches down, putting his face at the level of my tiny belly and starts talking to Angel
some chocolate ice cream” When he finishes saying those words,
“Hello Angelito. Tell mom to stop being so aggressive with me and that im going to take you both for so something strange happened.
Aaron lifts his face and notices that I’ve turned pale.
is something wrong, do? I don’t know what to answer because it’s something I’ve never experienced in my life.
“Aaron….. I think Angelo moved My friend looks at me skeptically. He thinks the baby is too small, but according to the last ultrasound, he’s well–formed
He repeats the action and talks to him again. To my surprise, it happens again. He scratches his head
‘I don’t see anything “let out a little laugh
‘No, you can’t see it. He’s small, but I feel like a little fish swimming inside my belly. But he hears you. That’s for sure” He looks at me and suddenly hugs me
“Doll, that’s wonderful Come on, Angelito wants chocolate ice cream, and I’m going to indulge him.” He takes my bag and almost drags me out of the office.
**Days later
It’s time to face the first person. I want mom to be the frat in the family to know about my pregnancy. Sol send her a message, asking her to call me when she’s alone. which should be in the moming Dad goes to work, while my brothers go to their schools. I hear my phone ring take a deep breath, and amer
“Hi, mom” My mother starts crying with joy. It’s been months since we last saw each other and I miss her so much
“Sweetie, what a joy to hear from you! Although we talk frequently, we’re always all together, and there’s little time to chat.” What mom says is true. When we do video calls, they all try to be there, and that happens on Sundays. It must be very atinge for her that I want to talk to her alone
I’m very happy too, mom. I miss you a lot pout, and she laughs, I know I’m her weakness.
“Tut tell me, why did you need me to be alone?” I stay silent for a minute, searching for the right words
“Mom, there’s something I want to tell you but please, don’t seproach me. Before I left, I discovered something very important, but didn’t want to confess it. Firstly, because it involves someone else, and second because at that moment, I was too hurt. So I kept qutet and brought it with ma”
I see that my words leave her confused, the suspense, I don’t want to make her wait any longer, so I blurt it out.
“Mom, I’m pregnant. I’m five months along now, and it’s a boy. His name will be Angel.” A loud sob can be heard from the other side of the line. I feel like a temble daughter for doing this to the woman who gave me lile
“Annie What are you saying? Pregnant? I’m sure she knows who the father is but doesn’t dare to mention it. But where you went is dangerous, something could happen
To you I let out a laugh
“No, mom. It’s a rural community, but it’s not dangerous I’m fine. There’s a large group of specialized doctors. The twins are also here to take care of me, and I’m a doctor mysel! Don’t worry, I’ll be fine I see in her eyes that she’s not measured.
No, Annie You must come back and carry out your pregnancy in a safe environment. Where you can be with your family. I want to take care of you, and surely your father
Her words echo inside me. But I can’t do it. Firstly because I have a commitment, and secondly because I don’t want Liam to find our
ve problems with
“I’m sorry mom, but I won’t come back. I request my leave in a few more months, but not now I’m fine. They take good care of me here, and there are people who need me: 1 just wanted you to know” I move the camera towards my sight belly “Look, it hasn’t grown much, but it’s forming”
My mother puts a hand over her mouth to silence her sobs. I feel moved to see how emotional she is
“Annie, will you tell his father?” I stay silent for a moment. These decisions are very hard to make
“Mom, months ago I called Liam to tell him, I thought he should know. But his wife answered. I don’t want to create conflicts in that mamage. For now, I’ve decided not to tell him.” She stays silent, analyzing my response.
“Well, I’ll respect what you decide. But please, think about it. Come back home. I want to take care of you and welcome my grandson. Will you promise me you’ll think
about 11?”
I don’t answer her question. I’m not ready to do what she’s asking
promise I’ll think about it. And please, wait before telling anyone else the last thing say before saying goodbye
I hope I’m not making a mistake, but no: I don’t want Liam to find out that very soon, his son will be born
