Perhaps the cold had numbed me, to the point where even seeing Lucas’s betrayal didn’t stir much emotion in me.
I moved my nearly numb legs and decided to take a cab home.
When I returned to the home Lucas and I shared, the living room was pitch black.
I turned on the lights, and it finally brightened up.
On the dining table was the loving breakfast I had made for Lucas before leaving this morning, untouched.
Next to it was a sticky note with hearts and smiley faces drawn on it.
I froze for a moment, unconsciously picking up the note.
Lucas had taught me how to draw these simple doodles back when we were still in the honeymoon phase.
He had held my hand and shown me how to draw them.
It was just a simple sketch, but he had insisted on being close to me while teaching it.
Now, it had been five years already.
I suddenly realized Lucas and I had been together for five years.
It had been such a long time, no wonder he had fallen for someone else.
After a moment of silence, I tore up the note in my hand and threw it in the trash along with the untouched breakfast.
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10:25 PM
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It had gone cold anyway, no point in keeping it.
Might as well throw it out.
Sitting on the couch, I didn’t know what to do for a moment.
I was tired today and didn’t want to go to the office.
In the past, I would have been excitedly making travel plans at a time like this.
So that Lucas and I could go on a trip together when he had time.
I loved traveling, but Lucas didn’t enjoy it as much.
As a result, out of ten times, Lucas was only willing to accompany me once or twice.
And even on those occasions, it was mostly because I had landed a big deal for the company.
Thinking of this, I gave a self–deprecating smile.
I didn’t know when I had become one of those people I used to look down on.
Before getting together with Lucas, I would encounter women who mistreated themselves for love.
I always found it incomprehensible.
Now that I was in the same situation, I could understand a little.
It was just craving some warmth after all. Who doesn’t have some unforgettable memories when they’re in love?
I don’t know how much time passed before Lucas came home.
